I'm having mixed emotions right now. I accidentally took my friend's notebook and I was flipping through the pages right now and came across some pages that used as her "diary". I know I shouldn't have read it and I should've just shut it closed but I couldn't help but read what she wrote.
She wrote about her boyfriend and how he's been pressuring her into having intercourse. My friend admits that she's interested in the action but understands that they're both too young to get involved in anything of that sort. Not to mention, she doesn't want to disappointment her parents or her boyfriend. It's a complex situation and she's torn inside.
She wrote about how she prays to God asking him for guidance and that she wishes she was closer to her faith. She seems confused and lost. In one of the pages she wrote that she wished she had someone to talk to get receive advice from.
After reading that I know I'm not a pro in that field or anything but I really wish she would open up to me about it. I don't why I have this sudden urge to talk to her about it. Reading it makes me want to open up to her about my past. I just wouldn't know how to bring it up considering that I don't think she even knows that I accidentally took her notebook!
And then I feel horrible because I know I should have respected her privacy and I know I would have been pissed to find out if someone read what I wrote.
After reading this I see her in a completely new light. Not in a negative way, but she honestly seemed like such a happy-go-lucky gal who was incredibly happy in her long-time relationship.
I don't know how I'd bring it up but if she asks me or seems scared if I read it, I will let her know that I did. I will own up to my actions and simply say that I wont repeat a word and I'd be open to take heed for her. She'll be in my prayers from then on, even though I do pray for my friend in general.
I just hope she follows her heart and takes her stand if anything drastic pursues.
