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Day 06 – Your favorite song from Make Yourself.

This album overall is a fantastic and as I've become reacquainted with it I've realized it was difficult choosing between: Nowhere Fast, Drive, and Make Yourself. However I realized that there's a common theme within the ones I chose above.

Nowhere Fast: "Will I ever get to, to where it is that I'm going. Will I ever follow through with what I have planned? I guess it's possible that I have been a bit distracted and the directions for me are a lot less in demand, in demand."

A lot of times I feel like what's expressed above. Time is moving by so fast and I think I'm going in the right direction but then other times I feel completely confused and lost. As a high school student I have many aspirations that can lead me in different directions and I don't know if I'll ever get there. Or if I do, will I know when I'm there?

Drive: "Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty sting clear and I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer. It's driven me before and it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around. But lately I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself my light is found."

Again, as a vulnerable student aspiring in life I can't help but let my fear take over and refrain myself from taking certain actions. As my own worst critic I put myself down and restrict myself from experiencing something new. I never listened to the lyrics to this song until recently, I always liked the acoustics of it. However as of late, I've been forcing myself to try out new things and even though I'm terrified throughout the whole process, I realize that in the end it's such a satisfying feeling because my light is found.

Make Yourself: "If I hadn't made me, I would've been made somehow. If I hadn't assembled myself, I'd have fallen apart by now... but if you really want to live, why not try and make yourself?"

Musically this track doesn't do it for me, and I'm not too keen on Boyd's vocals here. However I do love the message it's depicting. I'm all for being oneself and standing up for one's right and just being a firm believer in yourself and not succumbing to the masses. This song clearly sums up the positives and importance of making yourself.


These are only some of my current favorites on this album, and it's difficult choosing simply one. I feel like these three tracks give a snapshot of where I am currently in my life. Who knows, maybe twenty years from now I'll have different favorites of this album.

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As for life, I don't feel too content with writing out what's going on in my life right now. Only thing that's major is that I got my four wisdom teeth pulled out this past Saturday. My face looked like a freakin' brick! Horrible.

Human Magic Marker

Day 05 - Your favorite song from S.C.I.E.N.C.E.

I have so many favorites from this album! Idiot Box, Favorite Things, Anti-gravity, etc. This album has many gems that unfortunately aren't played live often. My current favorite song off of S.C.I.E.N.C.E. is Redefine.
Incubus added this track to their set list during their Light Grenades tour and they deliver a killer performance by experimenting with an acoustic cover of it.
The song overall is amazing lyrically & musically.
My favorite stanza is, "I'm sick of painting in black and white / My pen is dry, now I'm uptight / So sick of limiting myself to your definition / Redefine."

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After conversing with the man from yesterday, I feel like I have a whole new perspective on my high school life. I'm praying to God and hoping that I stop comparing myself to my peers and others around me. I should be content with who I am and where I'm now in my life because I did it myself. I busted my ass, did all the work, and I've made it this far. The man told me that if I really believe in my dreams and genuinely try my hardest to reach my goals, then I would.

Today I was only able to greet him but my mother spoke to him more. Mother said that he told her that if I ever had any questions about universities or school to give him a call. According to mother, he also said that he really feels that I'll be successful; that I'll be someone.

I was shocked; I only met the man one day and he's already praising me. I'm always skeptical about this but I can't help but feel like the compliment is genuine and I get a happy tingling feeling.

Ugh. I am in love with him. He's wonderful! I don't think I'll ever forget him, he's left his footprint on my heart. I love conversing with humans who are so genuine and motivating. There needs to be more humans like this wonderful being.

New Experiences

Day 04 - Your favorite song from Fungus Amongus.

I must confess that this is the album I least listen to. However I do enjoy some of the tracks, especially Sink Beneath the Line. I never paid attention to the lyrics until now and I never realized how odd they are. From what I grasp, it's about a girl with insects crawling up her "5-0-1 cut-offs." The song has a psychedelic groove and it's great listening to Brandon experimenting with his vocal range.

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Today I was presented with a new experience that turned out wonderful. My mother and I went car shopping! :) From what mother told me I thought it was going to be boring considering it takes a long time to reach a decision, I know nothing about cars, and I find no interest whatsoever in automobiles.

Turns out I enjoyed car shopping, even if the car wasn't for me. We had a great salesman who was wonderful: patient, kind, and humorous. If it wasn't for him I don't think I would have had such a wonderful experience-- I wouldn't have thought the day wasted at a dealer. On the contrary, I thought today was a neat experience and I gained a new perspective on life. I also learned that I'm a gullible female.

I'm conscious that those salesmen are there to sell and persuade, even if it means lying and saying things that the customer wants to hear. My mother reminds me of this all the time but I couldn't help but believe our salesmen.

He was wonderful, friendly, kind, funny, etc., etc.! Throughout the whole sale process, we were able to discuss universities and I was enlightened that he attended UCLA! I was shocked. He then proceeded to give me a "motivational speech" and in a nutshell it was wonderful.

I'm quite pleased with how the day turned out today.

Now it's 2:oo A.M. and I'm incredibly tired. Tomorrow shall be another busy day with babysitting.

Nostalgic 90's

Day 02 - When you became a Incubus fan
Day 03 – The first Incubus song you heard

It definitively was in the mid nineties when I became an Incubus fan. Like many other bands I was introduced to their music by my cousins and I still recall the first song I heard by them: Warning. I never knew them by their band name but when I would hear their songs I recognized their music.

Eventually I became aware of their name and their other track 'Talk Shows On Mute.' And since then I've been a fan of theirs. However it's been about two years now that I've become to appreciate their music more.

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Life at home has been quite a roller coaster ride. Drastic changes occurred within the household and I must admit that after everything, I feel numb to the change. The first time things changed for the worse, it hit me hard. After the first shock I knew that there would always be that other time where it would happen again.

I wonder how long it'll last this time.

Fuck the naysayers cause they don't mean a thing

Cause this is what style we bring

311's All Mixed Up

I really hate life right now and this track has been therapeutic.

You've got to trust your instinct
And let go of regret
You've got to bet on yourself now star
'Cause that's your best bet

Infatuation touches me just when I thought it would end . . .

I like someone that I know I should definitely not have a crush on. It's seen as taboo in society but I can't help myself. I like the guy a lot despite the major age difference. I often catch myself starring at him and I'm always curious as to what he's to do next. Not to mention, he's Asian. That's probably why I'm so attracted to him. His style is pretty suave too. ♥ Definitely Japanese influenced.

What is it with me and Asian men?

I think I grew a gray watching you procrastinate.

Day 01 - Your favorite Incubus song.

Would a written invitation
signed, "Choose now or lose it all,"
sedate your hesitation?
Or inflame and make you stall?

30 Days of Incubus

It's being done on Tumblr but I refuse to get one, so this will suffice.

Day 01 - Your favourite Incubus song.
Day 02 - When you became a Incubus fan.
Day 03 – The first Incubus song you heard.
Day 04 - Your favourite song from Fungus Amongus.
Day 05 - Your favourite song from S.C.I.E.N.C.E.
Day 06 – Your favourite song from Make Yourself.
Day 07 – Your favourite song from Morning View.
Day 08 – Your favourite song from A Crow Left of the Murder.
Day 09 – Your favourite song from Light Grenades.
Day 10 – Your favourite song from Monuments and Melodies.
Day 11 – Your favourite Incubus album.
Day 12 – Your favourite Incubus live performance.
Day 13 – Your favourite Incubus music video.
Day 14 – Your favourite Incubus picture.
Day 15 – Your favourite member of Incubus.
Day 16 – The Incubus song you most relate to.
Day 17 – Your favourite Incubus lyric.
Day 18 – Who would you like Incubus to go on tour with?
Day 19 – Your favourite song that Incubus has covered.
Day 20 – Your favourite Incubus album cover.
Day 21 – An Incubus song you would like to hear live.
Day 22 – A song you would like to hear Incubus cover.
Day 23 – Do you own any Incubus merchandise?
Day 24 – Who would you want Incubus to perform with?
Day 25 – Your favourite Incubus quote.
Day 26 – Your least favourite Incubus album.
Day 27 – Your least favourite Incubus song.
Day 28 – Have you ever met anyone from Incubus?
Day 29 – A Incubus song you can listen to over and over.
Day 30 – Anything Incubus.

ディル・アン・グレイ

Grief live @ The Avalon 2007


I still vividly remember that night.

This has been the only band my Mom has hated experiencing live. I don't blame her considering it was definitely different in comparison to other bands we often see. Plus, she had gotten sick so that made it worse with the loud speakers and screaming. I on the other hand, LOVED it! :)

日本の音楽のための私の情熱は帰ってきた--

and I couldn't feel any happier!! The idea of seeing my favorite Japanese band again excites me to no end! I haven't attended a Japanese show in such a long time! Let alone, a convention. I missed this.

Last night I listened to alice nine., 12012, dir en grey, nightmare, Plastic Tree and a wave of nostalgia hit me. It reminded me of many friends I've made through my fascination with Japanland.

I've set my mind. I WILL go to Japan. I will go and visit Kyoto, Shinjuku, Osaka, Tokyo, Nagoya, and all the other wonderful cities! AND SHIBUYA, the shopping district of Japan! The mere thought of setting foot on Japanese soil makes me so happy! I can't wait, I can't wait!

Kyoto will be filled with visits to temples and gardens.

SHIBUYA! I'd shop 'til I drop. Brands like h. naoto, SEX POT ReVeNGe, and sexy dynamite london!