I would like to find my other half, or at least I'd like to date someone. I've come across men whose company I enjoy, but unfortunately they are far older than me. I've noticed that a lot of the guys I'm into are older than me and I don't fancy many who are the same age as me. I've also noticed that a lot of them are in bands or are incredibly smart. Blah.
I just really wish I'd find the guy for me one day. I know I've got a long way ahead of me but I'd really appreciate it someone by my side.

I think I just need to drive and get away. I'd like my independence now. Or I need to find myself a new hobby. Shite.

I feel like dookie. I'm hating life right now. I hate everything. Sometimes I just want to QUIT everything. Sometimes I wish I just didn't care about school so much, getting good grades, or even being involved. I'm pretty sure majority of the UC's I applied to aren't going to accept me so what's the point of getting so worked up about it? I hate this shit. I think today I've reached the breaking point. I took my damn exam in math and I worked my ass of studying, stressing myself over it when I could've been studying for other classes. And just my luck, I still get a fucking F! I'm pissed. This is such bullshit. I'm seriously on my breaking point.

Sometimes I just want to quit EVERYTHING. I wonder why I worry so much about things because really, does it really matter in the long run?

Then I come to an upset mother because of a change of plans that I didn't have control over. I feel like I'm always ruining my Mom's plans and I feel terrible about it. I feel like it's my fault for causing such a burden on her and I'm not letting her enjoy her life. I hate that I'm terrified of driving. I have my permit already, but just seeing cars on the road freaks me out. Fuck. Sometimes I just feel like taking off and just being on my own. I despise having to rely on other people to take me places. I just want to get up and go sometimes without anyone hassling me about it or any bullshit.

I just fuckin' hate life right now. Fuck all this shit!

Open Up Your Eyes

Isn't it amazing how listening to specific music/artists can totally brighten up your day? I've been listening to Suburban Legends since I last saw them last year. Their music is so upbeat and diverse--I love it! I'm really bummed that I didn't find out about them earlier because I just LOVE their presence onstage and I can't wait until I get the chance to see them again. I'm bummed I didn't get their EP at the Ska Luau but I didn't want to leave the barricade 'cause after all I had been there for Starpool. I didn't expect any band to leave me in awe but apparently all of the bands that night did!
If you've got the chance to see Suburban Legends, do it. They've got some great tunes, awesome stage presence, and some awesome dance moves.



Just needed to get this outta my system. I've got a killer poetry final tomorrow for my English class and I gotta get back to studying.

Golden

My two friends have been having issues since their wedding. I have no idea what is actually going on with their life but from what the picture I just saw on Facebook I'm hurt and disappointed with my friend. I know it isn't my right to judge from what I saw since I don't have the whole story but it still hurts me to know that something might be going on with another women that isn't his wife.

He's told me that he's been having issues with his wife and his wife has told me the same. The thing that worries me is that his wife has been pregnant and is due soon in a month and he's still not making mends. I'm worried for their future and their baby girl. I now it shouldn't be my concern but my friend is like my brother and I got close to his wife as well. It hurts me as a friend knowing that he's "cheating" on his wife and it hurts me objectively as a female.

He's told me that he'd eventually fill me in but I just don't know how I feel anymore. I'm a mixture of emotions: hurt, disappointed, and annoyed. I wonder where it went wrong . . .

Concert List

2005
'AMERICAN IDIOT Tour' @ Home Depot Center in Carson 9/9/05
Green Day
Jimmy Eat World
Flogging Molly

2006
'WARPED TOUR '06' @ L.A Dodger Stadium Parking Lot 7/12/06
UnderOATH
Helmet
The Living End
The Casualties
The Academy Is
Senses Fail
Rise Against

2007
'TASTE OF CHAOS' @ Long Beach Arena 2/22/07
Evaline
Aiden
Senses Fail
The Used
30 Sec. To Mars
SAOSIN
Chiodos

'INWARD SCREAM Tour' @ The Avalon, Hollywood 2/24/07
Bleed the Dream
Fair To Midland
Dir en grey

'DIR EN GREY SUMMER TOUR' @ the Gibson Amphitheater 6/18/07
Fall of Troy
Dir en grey

'Aiden Headlining Tour' @ El Rey Theater 10/9/07
1969
Drop Dead Gorgeous
Art of Chaos
Aiden

'PMX Convention' @ LAX, Los Angeles 11/10/07
Met Tomo of Echoscream
Thee Out Mods
LiN CLOVER

2008
JUDO CHOP Vol. 10 @ 2nd St. Jazz Bar 1/11/08
Motion Drive
The Power Cords
Quan Chinese Takeouts
Cloud Highland
Thee Out Mods

JUDO CHOP Vol. 11 @ 2nd. St. Jazz Bar 2/1/08
2nd Hand Justice
The Deepsea Goes
Running on Fumes
The Stitched Lips
Thee Out Mods

JUDO CHOP Vol. 13 @ 2nd. St. Jazz Bar 4/12/08
Lemon Drop Kick
Thee Out Mods

JUDO CHOP Vol. 16 @ 2nd St. Jazz Bar 6/6/08
DFT
Tadahisa Yoshida
Random Ninjas
Thee Out Mods
Kureha
Dig Jelly

Super Estrella's REVENTON! @ The Home Deopt Carson Center 8/9/08
Alejandro Fernandez
Juanes
Don Omar
Julieta Venegas
Beto Cuevas
(Among others which I can't remember at the moment.)


Tokio Hotel's U.S Tour @ The Anaheim House of Blues 8/20/08
Tokio Hotel

2009
Detour Tour @ House of Blues
On Parade
A Ska Band
A Long Beach local

'21st Breakdown Tour' @ Inglewood at The Forum 8/25/09
Franz Ferdinand
Green Day

'Carson Daly's New Years Eve' taping @ The Nokia Plaza 11/23/09
Green Day

2010
One Day As A Lion's US Debut Shows @ The Community Culture Center 7/18/10
Holloys
One Day As A Lion

Superestrella's Reventon @ The Staples Center 7/24/10
Belinda
Reik
Beto Cuevas
Maria Jose
Nelly Furtado
Ramon Ayala
Daddy Yankee
Enrique Iglesias
Ivy Queen
Alejandra Guzman
Chino & Nacho

'21st Century Breakdown Tour' @ The Verizon Wireless Amphitheater 08/31/2010
A.F.I.
Green Day

San Manuel Indian Bingo & Casino present: The English Beat @ House of Blues 10/29/2010
Starpool
The English Beat

The First Annual Ska Luau @ The House of Blues 12/30/10
Stupid Flanders
La Banda Skalavera
Chase Long Beach
Suburban Legends
Starpool

2011
Japan Daisuke Relief Concert @ Chain Reaction 4/04/11
Kid Finnish
Phlying Saucer
Melee
Suburban Legends

Suburban Legends @ Tomorrowland Terrance in Disneyland 5/12/11
Suburban Legends

Starpool @ The House of Blues 6/9/11
We Are the Arsenal
Save the Swim Team
HB Surround Sound
Suburban Legends
Starpool

Incubus @ Jimmy Kimmel Live in Hollywood 08/10/11
Incubus

I can't believe what you do to me...

It's been forever since I last posted on my blog mostly due to the insane amount of stress and work I've had with college applications. However today it is FINALLY all finished. I just submitted my final application for BU and all I have to do now is submit transcripts.

Anyways, last year on the 30th of December I went to a show with my friend Derek. We went to the first Ska Luau starring: Stupid Flanders, La Banda Skalavera, Chase Long Beach, Suburban Legends, and Starpool.



I must say that I've been enjoying ska shows a lot lately and I'm tempted to say that it's better than a punk atmosphere...

The evening started out nice. Derek and I were able to get out tickets at the box office before they sold out and we got a nice spot close in front. We walked in right when Stupid Flanders were playing and they were alright, not really my cup of tea. There was a huge skank pit though, and people got really rowdy. I love skanking, but I'm quite terrified when there's HUGE people in there and I know I'm going to get killed.

La Banda Skalavera was a mix of ska with salsa and cumbia. It was definitely an interesting mix. They had some good songs, but I felt like too many of them were too slow for the night. Some started off well but it went downhill afterward. The saxophonist was really cute though and it made me wonder where he's from. Columbiano? It was during this time that these two chicks rudely pushed their way up to the front; it was annoying as hell. They were recording the whole time and just being completely RUDE. The people around me ended up pushing 'em out though, THANK GOD, 'cause I would've been pissed if they stayed there the whole night.



By the time Chase Long Beach got on stage I knew it was going to get wild. They're a really well known ska band and they've got amazing tracks to skank to! I always love when there's a female in the band, it's the feminist in me that gets happy, lol.


Suburban Legends were next and by this time I had already reached the barricade (yeah!) and this chick I'd made acquaintances with was right next to me. She was really chill-- she came from Pasadena so that was cool. Surprisingly Suburban Legends were a lot of fun. My Asian fascination kicked it when I realized the singer was Asian haha. I think one of the main thing that makes this band fun and stand out is that they have audience interaction. I've attended a handful of concerts and I've noticed that those that involve the crowd during their performance make a stronger impact than those that create a bridge.

They covered "I Just Can't Wait to Be King" from The Lion King and it was totally great! I felt my childhood memories sinking in, and surprisingly I knew majority of the lyrics. :) They had some cool choreographed dance moves too.

It was during this band that I realized this creeper had been creeping on me. I don't think I've ever been so terrified in my life, especially at a show! Fortunately for me I had met amazing people that protected me from his creeperness. That bastard. I don't think I would've enjoyed the show if it wasn't for those amazing people I met.

Starpool went on next and they were SUPERB as always! I can't remember the set list but it was loads of fun. They played some new songs I hadn't heard before and it was nice just relaxing a bit and watching them perform. Their encore song was 'Shout' by the Isley Brothers and while I prefer Green Day's version of the song, they did justice and it was still great fun. It was a great feeling knowing that all the people on the barricade were rockin' out for Starpool. This had been their first sold out show and headlining gig.

T-Bone Willy gave me a Dum Dum and I ended up catching another as well along with a luau thingy. I don't know what it's called but it's this:


Overall the night was spectacular. ♥ I really can't wait to start driving (I got my permit last Wednesday!) so I can just follow their gigs around California. And now that it's the New year I wonder what will be my first concert of 2011; I can't wait to see what the world has in store for me academically, socially, and musically.