CSUF - Accepted
UCLA - Denied
UCSB - Denied
BU - Still pending
USC - Still pending
UCB - Still pending
Quite honestly, it didn't hurt when I got rejected by UCLA mainly because they don't have journalism as a major and because my heart isn't there. UCSB did hurt a bit... not because I want to go there but because if UCSB doesn't accept me than there's no way I'm getting to my dream school of USC. That's what terrifies me, rejection of USC. It really kills my heart beacuse I can see myself there and my heart is there. :'(
Senior year is supposed to be a fantastic year and so far it's been one of my most stressful, most frustrating, and most chaotic. I seriously just want to crawl under a rock and never come out--or rather move to a different city far from where I am now. Hell, I just want to leave my house. I'm so over high school and I'm excited to start my new chapter in life. If anything I think I'm content with going to CSULB but only if I'm able to dorm. If I can't then I seriously don't even care about college anymore. I love my family and my mother but I want to become INDEPENDENT.
It's not only college letters that are pushing me over the edge it's just that it's so fucking crazy for me right now. People have such high standards for me and it pushes me over the edge because they don't understand how difficult it is for me to try and meet them. Fuck, man. Fuck this, I'm done.
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