I would like to find my other half, or at least I'd like to date someone. I've come across men whose company I enjoy, but unfortunately they are far older than me. I've noticed that a lot of the guys I'm into are older than me and I don't fancy many who are the same age as me. I've also noticed that a lot of them are in bands or are incredibly smart. Blah.
I just really wish I'd find the guy for me one day. I know I've got a long way ahead of me but I'd really appreciate it someone by my side.

I think I just need to drive and get away. I'd like my independence now. Or I need to find myself a new hobby. Shite.

Golden

My two friends have been having issues since their wedding. I have no idea what is actually going on with their life but from what the picture I just saw on Facebook I'm hurt and disappointed with my friend. I know it isn't my right to judge from what I saw since I don't have the whole story but it still hurts me to know that something might be going on with another women that isn't his wife.

He's told me that he's been having issues with his wife and his wife has told me the same. The thing that worries me is that his wife has been pregnant and is due soon in a month and he's still not making mends. I'm worried for their future and their baby girl. I now it shouldn't be my concern but my friend is like my brother and I got close to his wife as well. It hurts me as a friend knowing that he's "cheating" on his wife and it hurts me objectively as a female.

He's told me that he'd eventually fill me in but I just don't know how I feel anymore. I'm a mixture of emotions: hurt, disappointed, and annoyed. I wonder where it went wrong . . .

Nostalgic 90's

Day 02 - When you became a Incubus fan
Day 03 – The first Incubus song you heard

It definitively was in the mid nineties when I became an Incubus fan. Like many other bands I was introduced to their music by my cousins and I still recall the first song I heard by them: Warning. I never knew them by their band name but when I would hear their songs I recognized their music.

Eventually I became aware of their name and their other track 'Talk Shows On Mute.' And since then I've been a fan of theirs. However it's been about two years now that I've become to appreciate their music more.

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Life at home has been quite a roller coaster ride. Drastic changes occurred within the household and I must admit that after everything, I feel numb to the change. The first time things changed for the worse, it hit me hard. After the first shock I knew that there would always be that other time where it would happen again.

I wonder how long it'll last this time.

This is for the people of the sun

I'm in dire need of my license and a car. After experiencing One Day As A Lion live, I've become intrigued yet again in the Chicano movement. Zack de la Rocha and Tom Morello have been my main muse in this interest.

I wish I could do more rather than just sitting back and watching things happen. This is why the car comes into play. If I could drive, I wouldn't have to bother Mother and take off to rallies, protests, walks, etc. especially now because of SB1070. I know it's a controversial topic but it's a law that I do not support whatsoever. I AM aware of the state rights but I personally don't agree with it and that is my stance.



I never really took pride in my nationality. As a matter of fact, when I was younger I used to hate the color of my skin. I thought it was ugly to be brown because I certainly didn't feel beautiful. I disliked certain colors like pink because I thought it didn't fit the color of my skin. My mother tried reasoning with me telling me that my color is something I should be proud of and her friends would tell me the same thing. After time passed I didn't think about it much. It wasn't something I thought about and I felt objective when it came to my ethnicity.

However all of that changed once I got into high school. I became aware of my surroundings, my family's background, and most importantly I became aware of what kind of person I was. I'm continuing to evolve and I try to be conscious of that.

It was just recently in my junior year of high school that I fully embraced my ethnicity. I take pride in being Mexican-American; a Chicana. I've become more in tune with my culture, my language, and my beliefs. Thinking back on how I used to feel about my color saddens me.

Due to that I find myself immersed with fascination for the indigenous people of Mexico, specifically The Zapatista movement. Another reason why I'd like to get a car & get myself down to Chiapas and help out the community.

"Cuando la vida te presente razones para llorar, demuéstrale que tienes mil y una razones para reír." Anónimo

A world of neverending happiness

Yesterday I went out with my pal Nessa, her boyfriend and our friend Zach to the Stonewood mall. I personally didn't plan on buying anything considering I'm saving up for concerts but I succumbed. We headed towards the music warehouse and of course I had to come across Incubus' live DVDs and that's when I caved. They had their Alive @ Red Rocks and Look Alive along with their CDs. I would've got the Red Rocks DVD however I made myself a ghetto version of it on my computer so I settled for the latter.

Anyways, afterwords I wanted to show Nessa some Macbeth shoes I found and once we walked into the store my mind went crazy. I found the same guy I had met last December. Holy cow what are the odds of that! I got to chat with the dude again and we had a lovely conversation.

Yeesh. I was going to go into detail about our convo but I'm chatting with a guy on Omegle and we've got an interesting conversation going!

Sometimes I'd rather stay at school than come home to an angry mother.
It's frustrating and has such an major impact in my day. This being that if I was having a good day and I come home to an angry mother, no matter how great my day was it becomes horrible.

Ugh. Kill me now. -_-"