My grandma has been depressed for quite some time now. She's been to the doctor and they prescribed her medicine but she hasn't taken it and refuses to because she says she doesn't want to become addicted.
The problem is that she's extremely depressed and her profile displays that melancholic feeling. My family overall feels awkward when we can see how she's feeling. We all want her to feel better but it's frustrating when she refuses to take the medicine!
I feel torn and worried. My grandma is old and I don't think I'm ready for her to pass away. Those thoughts always come creeping into my head and it's a real nuisance! I try to push it away but they always come lurking back.
I try to spend more time with her but I've also become busy because of the school year. I'm just so terrified and I don't know what I'd do without my grandma. She's like my second mother.
I can't talk to my Mom about this because I don't want to put these horrible thoughts into her head so I'd rather type them out onto here. Either way I feel like the rain is always pouring in this house hold, figuratively speaking.
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